‘Perhaps’ is the word I heard
In my head
As I woke up this morning
Perhaps I should not be a Nigerian lawyer
I should not know the law enough;
Know the justice system enough;
Know lawyers enough
Know the country enough
To know these wolves might never get convicted.
Perhaps I should not be a Christian
I should not know God
And His heart for us, His children
I should not know how mindful He is of us
I should not know the great lengths He has gone to show His love
Maybe I wouldn’t be so heartbroken to see how they are being treated.
Perhaps I should not be a Nigerian
I should not have access to foolish thinking
To crass comments
To rape apologetics
I should not have my innocence corrupted –
To believe that there indeed are stupid questions
‘Why is she just speaking now after 17 years?’ (sic)
‘Why did she not struggle with the rapist?’ (sic)
‘What was she wearing?’ (sic)
‘Why did she become his friend if she didn’t want something more than that?’ (sic)
‘How was he able to rape her a second time?’ (sic)
‘What does she have to gain from this revelation?’ (sic)
‘Do you not fear God?’ (sic)
For the record,
Everyone who poses questions such as this is sick.
Perhaps, I should not truly understand who a Pastor is
That she or he is a person
To whom God (who is good and has no evil)
Entrusts the care of his children
That she or he is a person
Who is to lead others spiritually
To point them to the love and light to Christ
Perhaps if I do not have this understanding
I would not cringe every time I hear
“Pastor Wolf”
I am so tired
So enraged by how disillusioned we are as a people
We do not value God
Because we do not value life
We are so carnally minded
We who are supposed to be spiritually discerning –
To know what the devil looks like
To know his tricks
To know anti-christ signs –
We are the ones now enabling these things
We would rather romanticize the idea of an office
Or a position
Than fear the Lord
God’s heart is broken
Because mine is
And mine is
Because His is
He doesn’t want his anointed touched
He definitely doesn’t want her raped
I did not think I’d cry writing this
But here I am
Potentially destroying my computer
Perhaps if I didn’t know all of this
My life and my computer would be better off
But perhaps they wouldn’t.
I'd love to hear your thoughts!